toast coffee and cigarettes

not worth a rush

“seriously, you are my best friend!”

gosh, how I detest this sentence, especially when it comes from you little bitch. Friendship. a relation between two people which is based on devotion, sympathy, confidence and one another’s appreciation. and you identifiy with that? -haha

We first met in fifth grade and since then we’ve been surviving school until now. yeah, we did this together! But you disappeared actually, I can’t see in you the girl I was so proud to call my friend anymore… Where the hell has she gone??

In the past you laughed about those girls and just shook your head - today you’re one of them! I never would have guessed, not YOU! Your look is the only important thing in your life, it’s ridiculous actually the way you gaze at yourself just along the lines of “who on earth is this hot stuff there in the mirror?” True, you’ve got a hot style and you know exactly which skirt fits perfectly with that top. But that’s not your whole life, is it? What about me?

You don’t give a shit about me, you are so selfish and just think about yourself. Haven’t you ever noticed that it’s always you we talk about? You, you, you. And if I’m about to talk about one of my problems, you avoid and don’t even deal with it, well I mean why would you? The main thing is that you are doing ok. Whenever you had problems, have I ever not been there for you when you needed me? Have I ever not listened to you?

Right and then came the point when you first realized how the situation really is, you broke down crying, whimpering “what an awful friend you are but of course you care about me, a lot actually!” Those emotional outburts which are followed by like two weeks “BFF-behaviour” and bootlicking really get on my nerves… and in the end nothing’s changed.

It’s ok, don’t give it another try. I don’t need you! I do have friends who are always there for me and really do care about me. Friends whom I can tell anything knowing they will listen and not answer on one of my problems “Sarah Jessica Parker’s shoe size is 6.5”

Whatever might happen, I will be there for you and you know that. But I won’t ever call you my “best friend” and sweetie, I never used to! You fuckin don’t know me!